Who's knocking on your door?

You know how certain regrets from your past keeps banging on your door? I used to welcome them and invite them in.. and dwell amongst them. Which will make me feel depressed and unworthy of living. When I finally realised they are not helpful at all, I shut the door and shout back "go away!" or just lock it up, hoping they'll give up. Hoping that they'll stop banging the door ever again. However, days later.. you hear the door banging again. It's as if a stampede of wild angry animals are trying to make their way into my heart and mind. Who are we inviting into our hearts and minds? Do we often invite our pasts, to dwell in us again and again.
These would then lead to guilt, sympathy for ourselves, shame, unworthiness. Why not invite Jesus who could bring reconciliation to our broken hearts? For some reason, when we are so used to opening doors to these things in our lives, that we tend to shut out everything else that is GOOD that/who knocks on our doors. We are really so addicted to the attachment we have with the past and would rather dwell in them, than to figure out what could be done in the present and what we could look forward to in the future - freedom from condemnation. What are we holding on to? Think about what are the stuff we bring into ourselves that affects us the most? What dominates our hearts and minds?

We often really allow the enemy poke us around and play us like we're puppets - useless and powerless. We need to know that there is a Saviour who have already done something to set us free from these bondage of slavery. He already did that by dying on the cross for you and me. Dealing with your past is a hard tedious process however, dealing it with God - brings peace, reconciliation, joy and really knowing that He is God - that He could do anything to bring us through it.

Well, I know that I can't do it on my own.
I want to know how really God sees me, instead of having my regrets and past tells me how I was like (ie. a messed up failure).

I want to be able to recognise that gentle knock on the door - knowing that it comes from Him. Knowing that it is safe to bring Him in and that He is not out there to get me or trample over me, but that He yearns to bring love, reconciliation and peace in me.