Feeling lost and insecure
Realising that I have let go of not only one
But two or three closest persons
I held close to my heart.
I don’t want to be selfish anymore.
I don’t want to hold back what’s not mine.
I will give and entrust what is due to Him.
I realised I can’t hold any of them back.
I realised that whatever I do with my own strength and hands will fail.
I realised that I can neither stop anyone from leaving.
Nor should I try to keep pushing away the things I care the most.
Goodbye.... to all of you
And goodbye to myself,
The girl who try so hard to have it all
Who tries to possess what’s close to her
And what she thought was hers
I am now giving it all back to Him
And let Him make the choice
I surrender my friendships and relationships
To Him who deserves to be the Lord over these areas of my life
It hurts not knowing what will happen from now on
It hurts not knowing what I can have by my side anymore
It hurts not knowing what I can keep close to me
It hurts not knowing what is in my control
But I pray O God, that Your grace and mercy
Your love for me will be enough
To get me through each day
With each losses,
Help me see that I have something more to gain
Because each one has and will
Bring me closer to You.
